most beautiful thing

Daily flashbacks make me realize what we lost. I want what’s best for you even if it means not having me around. I hope someday I’ll be brave enough to tell you how I feel.… More

always, all ways.

Our scars tell us of the wounds that brought us to this moment, and remind us that even the tough stuff we are walking through now, will one day heal.

The Most Painful Thing

The most painful thing in the world is not pain, but regrets.

Patuloy na magpapatuloy

Tunay ngang mapangahas na gawain ang pagsulyap dahil maraming mga multo
ng nakaraan ang maaring magparamdam muli, mga alaala na kailangang buhayin sa
kabila ng matagal na panahong pagkakahimlay sa puso’t isipan. Ngunit kalakip ng
pagsulyap ang pagpapatuloy na siyang esensyal sa buhay ng bawat indibidwal, ang
bawat sulyap sa nakaraan ay pagkahubog ng hinaharap.

Alon

Hinihingal ang alat

ng dagat sa pagpapababalik-balik.

Giniginaw ang tubig

pagkahalik sa aking talampakan.

 

Babagsak nang padaka

ang talukap ng langit.

Sabay sa alaala

ng pagpunta sa iyo.

 

ang pagtatagpo ng buhangin

at ng mga paa na lumalapat.

oo nga’t nagmamarka.

Binabawi rin sa dalampasigan

kung saan kita hinangaan.

 

Tantiyado bawat kabig

pataas at pababa.

Tila kabisado na

ang paglusong at pag-ahon.

i’m literally walking in the miracle that i prayed for!! ♥

Paglalakbay sa Pagkamulat

 

Pagsusukat sa hakbang

ang paggamit ng mga salita.

 

Nais kong kabisaduhin ang kalsada

at aliwin ang sarili sa bawat tugma.

 

Ramdam ang init ng aspalto sa talampakan

nanghihimasok ng pagkatao.

 

Itong makipot na eskinita

punong-puno ng pag-asa.

 

Ang talas ng batong natitisod

nag-iiwan ng agam-agam sa isipan.

 

Sinusukat ngayon ang sarili,

hindi sa nasukat na hakbang,

o sa pagkaaliw sa mga tugma.

hindi sa pag-asang natagpuan

o sa talim ng batong natisod.

 

Kundi sa suma ng pagkamulat

at namulat.

I want you to let go of me.

Loving someone is the best thing you could ever do in your life. As the old saying by Alfred, Lord Tennyson goes, “It is better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all.” You have always been a part of me. You have been my source of happiness and motivation. Yes, I have loved you but I guess, it is better this way: “I have loved you and I’m letting you go.”

I know this is a bit confusing, but hear me out. I have been wanting to keep you for a long time. But life has limits and I just realized that there is something different: I do not want you to love me continuously, I want you to forget me.

You do not deserve me.

You are too good for me. You do not deserve someone who cannot give back the love you deserve. You do not deserve someone who cries when you are away. You do not deserve someone who does not care about anything except for herself. You deserve someone better. You deserve someone else. That is why I want you to forget me.

I am not quite sure of my feelings. I am not sure of many things. You do not want to be with someone who is not sure of what she feels for you. You do not want to be with someone who will make you feel like you are the only one who’s trying to make things work out. That will surely hurt you, and I do not want that to happen. That is why I want you to forget me.

I have been independent for too long. Yes, you have always been there for me. But I have been handling my problems on my own for a long time already. It is so hard for me to let go of that. That is why I want you to forget me.

It is hard for me to trust people. I know you’ll always be there because we’ve been friends, through ups and downs. But this time, it would be different. This would be another phase in our lives, and I think I will just mess things up because staying in this relationship needs me to trust you. I don’t trust people fully and easily. With that, I am afraid that I cannot handle commitments. Tell me I am being selfish, and I think I really am. That is why I want you to forget me.

It is very hard for me to move on. Most people would say that if you truly love someone, you must learn to let them go and set them free. But you mean so much to me. Someone like you would be so hard to find. If ever we nurtured a love and memories together then we realize that we are not for each other, life would be difficult. If I lose you, half of me will be left behind and will never be able to move on. I do not want to let bitterness eat me up. You matter to me. You really do. That is why I want you to forget me.

I overthink. You do not want to be with someone who chooses her own insecurities and pride over you. You do not want to be with someone who’s not capable of loving you, not even herself. You do not want to be with someone who thinks of all these little things.
You need to be with someone who’s not pessimistic about life, someone who has a positive outlook about her future with you. I am not that one. And I do not think that I will ever be that one.

This is why I want you to let go of me.